A few years ago, we got so much rain in Dallas that the Trinity River rose to heights I’d never seen. What is typically a muddy stream of nearly-still water took on fullness and movement and life.
Recently, my confidence swelled like the Trinity had and I felt so strong and so CAPABLE. I was walking taller, feeling happier, and thinking much kinder, positive thoughts.
But within the last week and a half, I’ve felt my confidence slowly retreat back to its normal state and it makes me kind of nervous! While part of me anticipates the ebs and flows that naturally accompany life, I’m anxious that these boosts will come too few and far between. I mean, what if it doesn’t come back?!
Today, I’m praying for peace of mind, strengthened faith (in the Lord and in myself), and an end to self-sabotage! Confidence is key, but it’s not always permanent…I hope I can find a way to keep pushing forward even when it’s fleeting.
God, You know my heart, my thoughts, and my intentions better than any one—even myself. Thank you for believing in me and paving a path—the best path—forward for me. I’m working hard to follow You and the path that has set forth for me, but sometimes I stumble and question myself and my placement.
In the moments (days, weeks, months) when my confidence begins to waver, build me up and help me face all that is ahead with strength and courage. Turn me away from excuses to run away from my calling, as Jonah did. Help me to face each challenge and disappointment boldly and with grace. Help me to rest assured in my belief that I am most powerful when I put my trust in You.